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Friday, July 08, 2005

I'm feeling all mixed up. I dont think i'm up to it but yet i cant believe that I'm being forced to do it. you know what. This leaves me with a 3 things i want to say about you!

1. you're just my friend
2. you're ruling over my life
3. you're simply doing it because you want people to look at you [attention seeker] if i can say.

I'm not here to judge or what so ever but i'm here to tell you that you should not be forcing people. esp forcing people that are not christians. I hope you actually do come across my blog and read it.
do not force non-christians into it. its their choice. yes, i know you might say: "sarah, you're a christian right?" the answer is yes I am, but is whether God is telling me to do it.

This is no funny matter if you can tell. because its not about i want to play this game or that game, go out with you or whatever. its about worship. its about leading the school in worship. yes again, you might think you are the lead singer and going around asking like almost half the class to be the backup singers. oh yeah, i'm sure its fine but are you singing because you want HER attention? you want her to go like... hey! she's up there leading worship. If thats what you've been thinking, i think you should re-consider!

I'm out of words to say. Just please re-consider. I can tell you this. so far, the 6 people doing worship with you... about 4 of us are the ones being dragged in, the ones that are not prepared, the ones that are not doing it for God but doing it because simply we were dragged in.

Check your attitude too. I cant stand the way you go round saying the 4 letter word, whats your bloddy problem... whatever. i'm not interested- you get angry over small little things.

oh my goodness! okay enough talking! talking about this just makes me sick-
I'm trying to decide whether to go for cell. on one hand, i have plentiful of revision and homework and on the other hand, I want to go. (: HEEE. i think i might just take a break (:

LOL. taking off-

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6:17 PM