Tuesday, December 16, 2003
sigh sigh sigh.
why must the world be this way?! it's totally unfair! and whads more.. i think Life sucks! why can't i go for camp?! and carolling?
i have been practicing so hard over this one month or so and now you're telling me i can't go cos of my studies? "hello" there's only two more practices for carolling and the real day is just this sunday! why can't you just let me do three things and i'll study after that. the first thing is to let me go for class camp and the second.. to go for carolling and the third to enjoy christmas! why do you guys have to put it that way like.. i'm going out all the time. when "my going out" is going to church and not to party at orchard?! huh. please tell me the reason why!!! when some people in the house gets to go out all the time and have gone out more than 7 times to orchard and less than 7 times to church for carolling and all that?! besides just church on sunday! and i have not even gone to orchard during this two months of holiday for more than 7 times? and only more than 7 times to church for practices and all that.
it's so irritating! and when i do it correctly and she says i'm wrong?! when later i'm correct!! whad's really your problem man.
goodness. this is really killing me!
how i wish i could just take this class camp to think abt it! but the thing is that.. i can't even go. and i just don't understand.. i'm doing this not because i want to escape from studying but i want to do this for God! and it's the truth. and it's not as if i'm out there playing a fool right?! why don't you just understand how i feel?! whad if i were "you" and you were "me"? how would you feel huh. just because you're older.. it does not mean that you're always right you know! argh. scrreeeaammsss.. so irritating!
i want to run away right now! but where can i go?
sighs. sighs. sighs. and how i wish.. church camp 2003 could have last longer and not even end! so that i do not need to return to this world of wildness and craziness!!
but in the end.. i know that everything that we do.. have to come to an end! but i don't think this is the way you shld be doing to me just because i don't show the attitude in studying?! but hey! think about it kaes.. at least.. i've studied and put in my very best effort and maybe you might think i did not! but all i know was.. i did put in the best i could do! and you're not happy with it!
sighs. sorry if this entry sound so harsh and all.. but it's really getting out of hand! and it's super irritating! and hannah wong.. if you're reading this.. i give you the choice whether you want to show mom and dad! i can't stand you guys anymore! and i don't think you guys can stand me too right?! [speak the truth!]
[p r i n c e s s s a r a h]
5:49 PM
